Hello all
     It's been a long time since I have posted and so much of life has changed. As I stated in the first post this is my journey. I am going to be authentic and real. I am going to speak my truth as it happens to me. I will celebrate my shifts and successes along with looking at my shadows. In this humanness form I am human, rising above to connect to my higher self.
     A couple of years ago I was talking with a friend, who lived in another state, she was asking me lots of questions.  She had told me that I needed to tell my story. That it would inspire and help others. I thought to myself, I know nothing about writing.. Me write my life story and journey to help others, let alone inspire. Where do I begin?, what parts do I leave out?, Will people think I am placing myself as a victim?, Will people judge the journey I have been on? How can I make myself so venerable?  These were the questions that kept running through my head.
    Every morning I pull three cards from the Doreen Virtue archangel oracle deck.  I kept getting the creative writing card as a reminder of what is being asked of me. Archangel Gabriel, Creative Writing "Make time to write down your thoughts in a journal, or pen and article or book".  First couple of times I kind of thought it was funny, but when the card came up several times in a week, I found it gave me a charge. Well needless to say I got angry and reminded the angels and God that we are on different time tables between the realms, and they needed to lighten up on me. I told them that when I was ready I would let them know and ask for assistance and guidance, to kinda back off. They backed off, I was getting the card with less frequency.
     When a person goes within and really looks at themself, it really makes one vunerable. We are taught so many paradigms and most of them aren't for our best interest. When I go through this process I do have compassion for myself in the part I played. I always love myself and forgive myself. Some are harder to look at and it can take time to figure it out. I did make a committment to myself that I was going to be honest about what I write as this is my experience.
     To give you a little background on my beliefs, I believe in reincarnation, I believe we choose whom and what we want to learn and experience before we come down.I am very spiritual. I have never felt comfortable going to church. I don't know if it has something with me being empathic. I felt I never belonged because I felt so much confussing energy in a church. When I was 18 I walked away from the faith I was raised in which was Mormon. I know I am an indigo child and a star seed. I know this is my last life and will not incarnate on earth again.
     Moving to Utah was hard. I did it to be close to my mother. I was in a failing marriage from a man who lied and cheated our whole marriage. Being empathic I could feel things, emotions and different energies, but it is amplified. I deeply loved my husband like no other man. Our contract was to teach me that no matter what, unconditional love. I did love him unconditionally. Loving him hurt too much. When he would sleep around on me, the sexual energy he was feeling would hit me like a wave. It crushed me. Of course I was always told a lie or that I was crazy. But the energy didn't lie.
      It would send me in a depression and I felt inadequate. Here I am a positive person overcoming anything that comes my way, to feeling I wasn't worthy of true unconditional love. I took my vows seriously, as they are sacred. Here I was in a marriage where his concept is different.  So for years I tried and didn't give up. Was I being fair to myself?  I know the man I deserved to be with, share my life with. The sad thing is this is what his father taught him and I am sure this has been a long ancestral line of actions. He had no respect for his father because of how it affected him growing up and how if affected his mother.  It was a love hate energy. The cycle continued with him and now I was on the receiving end of his lineage.

Ok you beautiful people, I am getting tired and will continue the story on the next post. Love and light to you all.

When we are younger our ego allows us to believe we know everything. It isn't until we have gained life experience and knowledge until we realize at that age we really knew nothing.
Currently I have been placed abruptly on the path spirit wanted me on.  I created this blog to share my journey.  I will share the beautiful experiences along with the hard ones. I want to inspire and uplift.  I will share my viewpoints and beliefs among other things I have learned.  This blog is never to offend but it is my story and I see and feel it. Come join me on this journey.
Namaste